Tuesday, October 07, 2003

 

Here it is after 3 in the morning, and I can't sleep because my heart has been beating strangely for a few hours. It's probably a combination of things, like the sinus pills I took, and the minor heart valve irregularity that I have that is causing this, and it's actually been happening now for a few days. It gets worse when I lie down just like when I had the echocardiogram. Also, for some reason, I remembered back to last year, about a month before my surgery when a certain unkindness happened. Unkindness seems to eat away at me . So right now I am getting a tightening in the chest (which isn't so big), and not feeling so great. Also, yesterday was the birthday of a deceased friend /coworker. If I must some something good about myself,and I must, I almost always remember my friend's birthdays.
I bought twinkies earlier today, I haven't had them in years, and since I'm up I might as well have one.
There is more to say, but whatever I write, cannot describe what I feel, and what I felt. So I will write later.

posted by Caroline 10/07/2003 03:53:00 AM